well look who decided to show up

surprise! did you miss me? if not, that's okay. we all have much more important things to do than read my little rambles about the ridiculousness I've been getting into (such as studying for an exam tomorrow...*cough*)

sophomore year ended while I was gone. summer decided to come and go as well. junior year is in full swing trying to run me over with massive amounts of schoolwork. it's difficult for me to wrap my head around the reality that time is going by quickly - and to be honest I'm not entirely sure where I'm going to end up. 

but that's alright. because over time I've discovered God really likes surprises. 

if you had asked me a few months back what I was going to do with my life after college, I would have told you I plan to either begin a teaching career or head somewhere bold for a masters program in education. but after much prayer and discernment, I know that working in the education field is not my calling. what is a girl going to do after four years of being immersed in History and Spanish? that, my friends, is the million dollar question. 

this last summer I truly grew. I wasted a good load of time attempting to 'branch out' and 'become my own person' - which was dumb. because I already am my own person. I'm God's freakin fabulous daughter! it just took a little while for that reminder to knock me over the head. but after a couple of slip ups, I was able to more fully grasp my current vocation as a young Christian woman striving each day to be a saint...and good golly I have got a loooooong way to go. but that's alright! I'm a work in progress and every time I fall, I'm able to get up and take comfort in the fact that at least I'm walking in the right direction. Through this crazy MC-style adventure, I realized that I am called to continue my ministry in areas aside from the classroom. 

so yeah. no idea what the next move is. but for the first time in a long time, I am completely at peace with that fact. people give me ridiculous interesting looks when I tell them I don't know where I'll be headed after walking off that stage in May 2014, but those looks have ceased to bother me. God's got this. He will reveal all those plans in due time. For now...all I know is that currently, I am called to be the best daughter, sister, friend, student, and youth minister that I possibly can. and the days I can fulfill that calling are the most rewarding. 

I pray His peace will be with you as well.